After We Collided (After, #2) by Anna Todd Read Online (FREE)
“Oh, Tessa, will you be riding with us to Christian’s house on Sunday?” Karen asks just as I reach the door.
“The dinner they’re having to celebrate their move to Seattle?” she tells me as if I should know this already. “Kimberly said she told you about it? If you don’t want to go, I know they’ll understand,” she assures me.
“No, no. I want to go. I’ll ride with you.” I smile. I am ready for this. I can be in public, in a social setting, without cracking. My subconscious is mute for the first time in nine days, and I thank her before following Landon outside.
The weather mirrors my mood, sunny and somewhat warm for the end of January. “Are you going on Sunday?” I ask him once we get in the car.
“No, I’m leaving tonight, remember?” he replies.
He looks at me with a wrinkled brow. “I’m going to New York for the weekend. Dakota is moving into her apartment there. I told you a few days ago.”
“I’m so sorry, I should’ve paid more attention to you instead of making it all about me,” I tell him. I can’t believe how selfish I’ve been to not even pay attention to him telling me about Dakota’s move to New York.
“No, it’s okay. I only briefly mentioned it, anyway. I didn’t want to rub it in your face when you were . . . well, you know.”
“A zombie?” I finish for him.
“Yes, a very scary zombie,” he jokes, and I smile for the fifth time in nine days. It feels nice.
“When will you be back?” I ask Landon.
“Monday morning. I’ll miss Religion, but I’ll be there right after.”
“Wow, that’s exciting. New York will be incredible.” I would love to escape, to get out of here for a while.
“I was worried about going and leaving you here,” he tells me, and guilt fills me.
“Don’t be! You already do way too much for me; it’s time I do things for myself. I don’t want you to ever think about not doing something for yourself because of me. I’m so sorry that I made you feel that way,” I tell him.
“It’s not your fault, it’s his,” he reminds me, and I nod.
My headphones go back into my ears, and Landon smiles.
IN RELIGION, PROFESSOR SOTO chooses the subject of pain. For a moment I swear he’s done it on my behalf, to torture me, but when I begin to write about how pain can cause people to turn to or away from their faith and God, I’m thankful for this torture. My entry ends up being filled with thoughts about how pain can change you, how pain can make you much stronger, and in the end you don’t need faith as much. You need yourself. You need to be strong and not allow pain to push you or pull you into anything.
I end up going back to the coffeehouse before yoga to acquire more energy. On my way back to yoga I pass the environmental studies building and my mind goes to Zed. I wonder if he’s in there now. I assume he is, but I don’t have a clue about his schedule.