After We Collided (After, #2) by Anna Todd Read Online (FREE)
“It’s not supposed to be simple.”
“It’s not supposed to be this hard either.” She begins to cry with me.
“Yes; yes, it is. It’ll never be easy with us. We are who we are, but it won’t always be this hard. We just have to learn to talk to each other without fighting every time. If we’d been able to have a conversation about the future, it wouldn’t have turned into this big fucking mess.”
“I tried, but you wouldn’t have it,” she reminds me.
“I know.” I sigh. “And that’s something I have to learn. I’m a mess without you, Tessa. I’m nothing. I can’t eat, sleep, or even breathe. I’ve been crying for days straight, and you know I don’t cry. I just . . . I need you.” My voice is breaking and cracking, and I sound like a fucking idiot.
“Stand up.” She hooks her arm under mine to try to pull me up.
Once I’m on my feet, I stand directly in front of her. My breath is ragged, and it’s hard to breathe in here, with the steam filling every inch of the bathroom.
Her eyes pour into mine as she takes in my confession. If it wasn’t for the fact that I’m crying, she wouldn’t believe me. I know she’s battling with herself, I can tell by the look in her eyes. I’ve seen it before.
“I don’t know if I can; we keep doing this over and over. I don’t know if I can set myself up for it again.” She looks down at the ground. “I’m sorry.”
“Hey, look at me,” I plead and tilt her head up so her eyes meet mine.
She averts her eyes, though. “No, Hardin. I need to get in the shower, I’m going to be late.”
I capture a single tear from just below her eye and nod.
I know that I’ve put her through hell and no one in their right mind would take me back again after the bet, the lies, and my constant need to fuck everything up. She’s not like anyone else, though; she loves unconditionally, and she puts everything she has into loving me. Even now, when she’s turning me away, I know she loves me.
“Just think about it, okay?” I ask her.
I’ll give her space to think about it, but I’m not going to give up on her. I need her too fucking much.
“Please?” I say when she doesn’t respond.
“Okay,” Tessa finally whispers.
And my heart leaps.
“I’ll show you—I’ll show you how much I love you and that this can work. Just don’t give up on me yet, okay?” I wrap my hand around the doorknob.
She bites down on her bottom lip, and I let go of the knob to close the small space between us. When I reach her she looks up with cautious eyes. I want to kiss her lips again, to feel her arms wrapped around me, but instead I plant a single kiss on her cheek and step away from her.